Tuesday, August 18, 2009

For Shame

I have the best blog in cyberspace. In my head.

So sorry I haven't kept up. It's not that I don't have anything to say. In fact, it's just the opposite. Where the bloody hell do I begin?

Let's start at the very beginning. A very good place to start.

The profession of Mothering has been on my mind a lot lately. This is probably because I have been a mother for almost 2 years. I thought I would hate it, but I love it extremely. Rowena is a wonderful little person and I adore her. I work barely ten hours a week outside the home just so I can laugh with her and play with her and cook with her and be with her. You really ought to meet this little nymphlet.

I often meet new people in Portland. One of their first questions is, "What do you do?" I automatically panic every time.

Will they judge me? Will they think I am wasting my young 26-year-old life? Will they feel sorry for me? Oh my gosh... am I wasting my life?

Last night at Ikea, Rowena joyfully puttered from one display to the next, unintelligibly chattering about the experience. It was really darling. As she toddled past a fellow customer, he said to his friend,

"That reminds me- I need to buy some condoms."

He did not say this in a cruel manner, but his statement truly hurt me. Doesn't he see what a wonderful person Rowena is? Doesn't he see that her existence makes the world a better place? Doesn't he understand that Rowena is the future and hope of the world he lives in?

I didn't react to what the man said, and perhaps I should have. I could proceed to explain what a noble profession I have, but I won't. It's been said much better by others. I really am proud of what I do, and I hope to gain the courage to show it more. The best thing I can do to get a little respect as a mother is to raise Rowena as a loving, happy, responsible person- and often read her "Miss Rumphius".


Arwen said...

Louise, I love it when you blog! And this is a great post. My sister and I were just talking today about how sad it is so sad that people view raising children as an interruption of life, something to be endured, when really it is a vocation, and a beautiful one at that.

Your nymphlet (love that!) is glad to have her mother with her too. I am sure of it.

And Rowena in pigtails might just be the sweetest thing I've seen all week.

The Vintage Modern Girl said...

what a sweet little girl you have! never be ashamed of your profession(and IKEA guy- who says that??!!)thanks for stopping by my blog! :-)

Corina said...

Some people just don't know what a joy it is to have a child. I myself hope to have some in the next few years (although I still have to find a guy, and get him to marry me, lol). Glad I ran into your blog, feel free to visit my blog as well: http://acircleofquiet.typepad.com/